#It will probably be like 9 hours long

[aconstantstateofbladerunner]

@rajghafa Hey there, glad you like the post! I’ve actually never met anyone else who’s even heard of these books besides me, so I’d love to hear more of your thoughts if you’re willing to share them.

As for your question about ableism, towards the end of the third book, main character Kelsey gets bitten by a shark and reacts in the aftermath like this:

(Apologies for the low-quality screenshot)

Apparently, people with amputations can’t find love or raise children.

Now, one could make the argument that these are the irrational ramblings of someone who just survived a traumatic experience. However, Kelsey walked off numerous other animal attacks earlier in the series, including getting mauled by a bear, so why is this one different? I don’t think the author put that much thought into it. Not to mention the main focus here isn’t the injury itself, but how it will hypothetically affect her love life, further emphasized by her boy toy Ren telling her on the next page that he would still find her pretty even if she lost both legs. That is the resolution. Not that Kelsey is being irrational, but that she’s still sexually attractive wife material no matter what.

Not to mention the casual sexism of it being a woman’s “responsibility” to get married and raise kids. Unfortunately, the misogyny is a much more common occurrence throughout the series.

I don’t think the author hates disabled people, but I also don’t think she bothered to consider how unnecessarily shitty and hurtful that was to write her main character saying. Just like she didn’t consider how to respectfully depict a culture she wasn’t a part of or if she should look up whether or not China still had an emperor in 2011.

@jelly-as-in-grape-concord made this for me

Tiger’s Curse book 3 is officially the worse book I’ve ever read and Colleen Houck is my eternal enemy.

[welcometogrouchland]

Tell me why my university has scheduled me for 17 hours per week this semester. I do a film degree btw

[tj-crochets]

I would like to both thank and blame tumblr for the phrase "turn slow tigers into fast tigers with this one neat trick!" Like, I am grateful for it as a mnemonic that stuck that reminds me to go punch the punching bag* when I get too stressed out and can't function well from acute stress, but also I can no longer refer to it any other way because when I get that stressed I have trouble with words Which means today I was putting on my wrap gloves and my brother was looking at me like "what are you doing?" and all I could say was "turning slow tigers into fast tigers" *I think the original post was about taking a short run or tensing all your muscles and then releasing them? But my response to stress is very much not flight lol

[chiimeramanticore]

waow

[turoce]

thank you to divorced people for finally bringing back my motivation to draw again

[sysig]

Sick threads where’d you get ‘em (Patreon)

[lesbiansanemi]

I have my psych testing tomorrow and apparently it’s supposed to winter storm fuckkkkk me

[a-s-levynn]

i'll get on my inbox, you guys i promise, i love you al land appreciate the love, i just barely got home and i'm super tired (family event all day)

[threnodians]

texted my boss to call out again, i was feeling better last night but i’m back to feeling like trash garbage again which is fucking fantastic 👍🏻

i should go to the doctor but i know that this is almost definitely just a combination of an autoimmune flareup and my period and stress and going to the doctor would be exhausting and pointless as it almost always is for me

i feel so bad (i say as i am literally laying in bed crying) because joey is picking up my shift again like she did last night even though she works the morning shifts as well but also like thank goodness she is because i quite literally cannot do the job while feeling like this i can barely do anything while feeling like this

[ikilledamanforthisurl]

in the interests of staying comfortable in my room, with the trade-off of feeling kinda bad about it, i have skimped out on going to a gig, which may have been mildly painful and overwhelming to go to but would have made me feel really really good, because my friends are going, and my friends are playing, and they love me and come awwnnn theres no reasons not to go

[butts-bouncing-on-the-beltway]

I don't have a lot of energy these days [because of The Horrors] so I'm looking at my day and my priorities and trying to plan how I'm going to spend what energy I have, because I do need to be able to rest and relax but there are also things that need doing and that is a careful balance for me.

I managed to [mostly] clean the kitchen last night so I've kicked it out of the priority list until next weekend. Unfortunately the living room, bathroom, bedroom, and my office all need cleaning too. I think of the priorities, my office and the bedroom are the most important to me, so I'll probably push the living room and bathroom until at least Friday.

There's also the laundry. I don't have any clean clothes and as we're moving into winter I need to be more rigid about getting that done because days where the clothes can be dried on the line will be more limited. So I definitely need to wash an outfit or two and hang them up in the next hour.

That's already a really busy day, so I'll probably cut it there. But it's definitely going to still leave me a lot of work this week. Half my cleaning, at least one more round of laundry, settling dog food for the next couple of weeks, planting the fall/winter greens, doing some set up work on my computer, work on some writing projects, cleaning out the fridge, and patching some worn clothes. My work week isn't insane atm, but it is definitely limiting. Right now I have 6+4+0+4+2+5+5= 25 non work/non-survival needs (sleep, food, shower, etc) hours available each week. I need to figure out a regukar distribution of these that means everything is getting done and I still have an hour a day to myself as often as possible. I think it's probably not realistic to give myself more than an hour a day for free time/fun, which is a bit unfortunate because I've found in the past that my floor tends to be getting 2-3hrs of free time most days because of how I deal with transition and decision-making.

25-7 [1hr per day] is 18 hrs, so I just need to decide where and how to distribute those in order to keep pace with things.

Lets say the garden needs 3hrs per week, the laundry needs 4 hours (specifically 2 sets of 2 morning/early afternoon hours), the cleaning needs an hour a day to get through a maintenance clean of the house, and 3 hours once a week to work down any deep cleaning that's built up. Which is....already three more hours than I actually have each week. So I guess I'll make a plan to work in the garden for 20-40min of 4 of my free hours each week.

It really doesn't leave me any wiggle room. Only about 4 hours a week that isn't explicitly allotted to something that needs doing, which means there will probably me a lot of weeks where I only get an hour or so at best across the whole thing for free time. I guess I've had a hard time accepting that at this point, having actual time for myself or a time-intensive project is only available if I've taken a day off work. I love my job, but it's ... not comfortable to realize that it's the only love in my life I actually have time for anymore.

I think that's probably why I end up here so much. It's this mindless little way of zoning out into my own head, dissociating away from the exhaustion, for a few minutes at a time. I keep thinking I want to use this space differently, make it more if the things I enjoy. But I think what I really want is just to actually have the time and energy to do things I love that take work. I keep crying a few times every day and I couldn't figure out why, but like

I dunno

Why **wouldn't** I cry a little every day? It's the closest I'm getting to actual emotional release or relaxation in my life. We'd probably all cry. Heck. A lot of us probably DO, capitalism being what it is.

I guess I'm starting to wonder why I'm doing what I'm doing. What is there left for me to sacrifice to this life? What is actually serving me about not just letting myself go up like a fireball and take my surroundings with me? What in the ever loving fuck am I fighting this hard for?

All I ever want, all I want now, is to be able to live. To really, actually live. How does wanting to live bring you this close to killing yourself, whether on accident or on purpose? What am I actually doing that is LIVING and what am I doing that is FACILITATION of living? It can't all be facilitation, or I'm not actually facilitating fuck all.

I'm 30 goddamn years old and I need to figure out what it looks like to actually love my life. I fundamentally refuse to zombify myself like this for everyone else around me forever.

[roylustang]

I’m about to go apeshit on this pizza

[casiavium]

controversial opinion but I feel like causing problems on purpose. I know Ghirahim is the interesting one and normal people multiship him or focus on his character but I just do not care about him like that <3 I am here for ghiraLINK zeLINK whoever you're shipping him with x LINK. skyward sword Link (and skyward sword ONLY 😤 thee first Link if Hyrule Historia hadn't rewritten history 😡) is my blorbo 💕❤️💘🥺💖😩💕❤️😫🩷💖💞 and Ghirahim is just some guy

[cidnangarlond]

one day I'm gonna end up doing a mike's mic style video about mash and it'll get 10 views and half of those are me

[tragedykery]

I was tagged by @koheletgirl and @djpuppy to do this a few days ago, ty!! sorry I forgor </3

[ID: two “receipts” from receiptify. the first one shows my most played songs on spotify in the last month:

jêl caerdydd by calan

pa le mae nghariad i by calan

chwedl y ddwy ddraig by calan

kân by calan

rew-di-ranno by calan

autre temps by alcest

saranga dariya by mangli

lullaby by low

sinnerman by nina simone

far over misty mountains cold by clamavi de profundis

the second one shows the same but for artists:

calan

florence + the machine

hozier

mitski

rina sawayama

fiona apple

meet me @ the altar

jinjer

the amazing devil

black hill

/end ID]

tagging: @satans-poptarts @saintdaffodil

[trickstump]

i don't mean to be alarmist but there's a potential that fob's set is 2 hours long.